Surgery

Brain Surgery Two Years Later

Pre-op 2014

Pre-op 2014

On the second anniversary of my surgery adventure I am (still) grateful to be alive. And not only to be alive, but to be sitting on a comfortable bed looking out a window at crisp blue sky bordered by colorful almost-falling leaves. I’m about to go eat a baked potato and sit outside with friends. Tonight I’ll sing along to every song as I watch Frozen while eating popcorn and chocolate. I almost cannot believe this is what I get to do today. But I can, because of what I’ve learned in this past year since surgery:

No experience is forever. And when the experience is painful, I get to know without a doubt that it will change.

I can do whatever I want. There are no rules. I just have to admit to myself the secret desires of my heart. Those desires are for my good, and are leading me on the adventure I came here for.

I am good. I am made up of pure loving goodness, and no matter what I do or what happens to me, that is permanent amongst impermanent.

Even if my mind disagrees, I am doing my best. If I knew a better way I would be doing it.

Love is easy because love is everywhere. I cannot escape its abundance, but I can be distracted from it through thinking.

I can forgive everything for being as it is, because it already is.

My body is trying to help me stay alive. It loves being my vehicle in this world, and it is always doing its best to serve me. There is nothing about my body of which to be afraid.

I love being myself. I love you being yourself. And I’m so grateful we are being ourselves at the same time.

What you think about yourself, or me, or the world is not who you are. This makes it very easy to love you no matter what.

When the present moment is happening it is never what I thought it would be like. It is usually easier. Thank you for making it easier. I am grateful for your spiritual presence in my life, and your unconditional love. May your love return to you tenfold.

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6 thoughts on “Brain Surgery Two Years Later

  1. Lisa Becker says:

    So insightful. Thank goodness you are here and doing so well and on top of it sharing your wisdom. Thank you💕

    Sent from Lisa’s iPhone

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  2. Dear Katie, I am a friend of your brother Greg and I am going on my 4th year after my brain surgery of which I had a 50/50 chance of surviving. Your words touched me deeply because I understand where they come from. I am so happy for you and I hope you feel the gifts you get after such an ordeal and use to be better than ever…I do.
    Be well…

    • Wow I am so thankful for you, and that you are going strong these years after your surgery. Thank you for such kind words, they mean a lot to me. I hope each year I can honor the gift of this life more and more.

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