When Something Feels Wrong

TenebraeDo you ever feel restless, like you are just waiting for some type of change to happen? Do you ever feel like you want to do something more meaningful with your life or just want to feel differently than you do now?

If so, I have good news and bad news.  The good news is, you’re not alone!  The feeling of being disconnected, or just the slight sensation that not everything is as it should be, is a universal human experience.  The bad news is, there is nothing you can do to fix it.  Even if some exciting event were to take place in your life, afterwards you would just be back in the old familiar waiting stage.

The amount of time spent experiencing those pivotal life moments that are tangible and obvious pales in comparison to the waiting period.  There is more good news of course!  You can stop waiting.  To the mind that would seem an impossible task.  After all, it has so many thoughts about the future that it is waiting for, a future that will never come, because when it does it will no longer be the future, it will be the purgatory of the present.  That is the mind’s view of life.

To stop waiting means to stop asking your mind for permission to experience the reality of your present moment.  To stop waiting means to allow yourself to feel what happens when you become present and take away the momentum of your attention from the never ending thought ticker playing across the screen of your consciousness.

It may feel uncomfortable sometimes, but that is only the initial experience of the new layers you’re reaching as you delve just below the surface of your present moment experience.  Much like Harry, Ron, and Hermione had to let go and relax as they were being strangled by Devil’s Snare in order to make their way through to the sorcerer’s stone, there is more than the prickly uncomfortable surface experience.

Next time you feel out of alignment with your highest potential take a deep breath, lean into the initial uncomfortable feeling as you come into the present moment, and settle into what is real.  In this simple and transformative video Eckhart Tolle puts it much more eloquently:


Harry Potter, Puppies, and the Origin of Joy

LeakyCon!Growing up during the “Harry Potter Era” taught me innumerable lessons, one of which is that I love Harry Potter.  I can’t count how many times I’ve read J.K. Rowling‘s gift to this world, but each time I do I am no less entertained than the time before.  Every time I go through the series it feels new.

New things, feelings, experiences, and insights provide an unparalleled joy.  Why is that?  Is it possible to feel that same sense of joy more often?

The joy that comes from the new is actually the joy that arises from the now.  Usually we do not truly experience the present moment, because our thoughts and perceptions are clouded by a heavy veil of past.  It is so natural to view everything through the eyes of the past that it can be impossible to notice we aren’t seeing the reality of the eternally new present.

New things unveil the joy of the present because we have no past experiences through which to filter them.  The beginning of cultivating that experience in everyday life is to acknowledge you are viewing the present through the lens of the past, and do no see the actuality of what is.  This opens the door for the infinitely new now.

On that note, get a boost in present moment awareness with these adorable puppies experiencing the newness of life.  Dogs are great teachers of presence because they are always fully experiencing each moment.

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“Build a Life, Don’t Live One” – Ashton Kutcher

Today’s post should really be called “don’t judge a book by its cover.”  Admittedly I have judged a book by its cover, when I was in the 4th grade, and that book turned out to be Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone by J.K. Rowling.  So in that instance judging a book by its cover worked swimmingly, as the Harry Potter books became my favorite series.  But I digress.  In general judging a book by its cover, so to speak, keeps you from discovering a myriad of wonder lying just beyond a dull exterior.  This principle made itself very clear to me yesterday as I was scrolling through YouTube and came across a video of Ashton Kutcher at the Teen Choice Awards.  I’m going to be honest; I started watching the video because of the headline “Ashton reveals his first name.”  I don’t know why that happened to hook me, but alas it did.  As I watched the video the first name thing was not interesting at all, but what followed blew my mind!  I was amazed by the wisdom that came out of his mouth; I was left completely speechless.  There is no prescription for where wisdom comes from.  Generally, I would surmise, people aren’t watching the Teen Choice Awards in order to become enlightened.  But everyone in this audience ended up receiving infinitely more than they paid for:

Thank you Ashton!  The more human beings that begin “building a life” instead of living a life prescribed in advance by their predecessors, the more the world will be transformed into the heaven that it always had the potential to be.  

Now for a brief update on day 3 of the “1 new thing a day challenge.”  I have yet to do my new activity for the day, but last night I tried pizza with pineapple on it for the first time.  I am picky eater so that was big.  And it really wasn’t half bad!  Although, it just left me wanting to eat pineapple on its own.