I do not perceive my own best interest. This notion use to torment me. When I first began to see that every small action on my part had a ripple effect, beyond anything I could conceive of, I became worried and unsure of myself.
On a small scale this looks like not being sure which plans to commit to this weekend because it isn’t yet clear what will end up being the most enjoyable option. On a larger scale this looks like questioning the motives behind a chosen career path, or not being sure if you should commit to a relationship.
What I hadn’t perceived after experiencing an awareness of the infinite effects of my small choices was what those consequences meant for my true best interest. After a little bit of living it becomes clear that things that are bad at one time can turn out to have positive outcomes, just as something that was first good news can turn into suffering later on. But at a higher vantage point whatever journey the ripple of each action takes there is with it the movement of your highest potential unearthing itself through the inner erosion that takes place one situation after another.
According to A Course In Miracles understanding that you don’t perceive your best interest is an essential step in allowing miracles to occur. Without this internal judgment of external situations your every moment can transform into the shape it was meant to realize, and with it enact your own best interest.